Are oranges called oranges because oranges are orange or is orange called orange because oranges are orange?

September 30th, 1998. It's a day I'll never forget. The cop inside me died that day. And that night, Raccoon City was wiped out, thanks to the bioweapons created by Umbrella. Somehow, I made it out. But too many others...weren't so lucky. I was "asked" later to join a top-secret government program. Not that I had a choice. The training, the punishing missions...nearly killed me, but at least they kept my mind off everything. If I could just forget what happened that night - the pain, even for a second? This time, it can be different. It has to.

hiiiiiiiiiiii

Im not writing poems happy poems anymore, theyre all abt death, suicide and not deserving anything. Im so sorry

Btw the song its fucking perfect for this post😓

Recetly i hate life, and my mom. At least ive friends, but idk, i just wanna be what i really am. I just feel in a cage, and ts really hurts

I am fucking crazy...but I am free

UR SO PERFECT

Ur look like a sunset
I wish i could see it through ur eyes
That would be so perfect
Just like ur face

U look just like a cat
W ur paws u could save lifes
Just like u did w my heart

U look like flowers
Cause they are a work of art
And ur gorgerous under the stars
But only i could see ur wonderful part

You know you are a dog person when you like dogs; you know you are a cat person when cats like you. - R. Ning, 2025

Hey you, I know you're reading this. Stop it now, I'm embarrassed.

hiii

Gay sex

刺身とかはまだ決まってないの？

goodmorning sweeties!
I ain't ready for the chess tournament... I'm in regret. I'm a failure. I'm gonna lose every game. the strongest is like 2300 Elo, oh God.
I'm fucked

I write this here ‘cause there’s no one in this section and I don’t care about likes or if you wanna read it or not I just need to write. I’m feeling bad right now, what I’m doing seems so pointless, seems like all will be hard to do, days are passing quick and are almost all fucking the same; I have to do important things for my life and my stability and then I gotta study too and I’m just doing nothing… I have a lot of energy but they’re stuck, I can’t use them, I have only my “reserves” they’re the only thing who make me alive, fortunately I have a lot of reserves but it’s like constantly living in saving mode, fortunately i don’t have a sad behaviour I can charge by my self im not a damn mummy I don’t wake up full of dust and quietness as Ramses II and Tutanfuck, I have the ability (forced) to just don’t think about the things and carry on, but as you know it’s hard… I mean in this site too how can you say you’re sad/depressed and then study 60-100 pages per day? fortunately I’m doing all the exams but it’s so hard and I’m doing all a the end of the days… how can my cousin say she’s depressed and acting so shy and quite compared to me who I look good because I talk and act good while I’m almost dead inside… and she has work stability, goes out almost every evening/night, no worries about bills and money (come on 350$ of rent? Don’t make me laugh 😹) why family is worried about her?! only because I act strong and she seems depressed all day? What the fuck are her problems? Yes hypochondriac behaviour who a little thing could be a cancer, then yeah “I will never find a man” (and a lot of men want her, but ok we know some of them are jerk and so on), “maybe I could do another job” yeah okay?! but trust me is a good job she’s not serving coffee or passing things at the supermarket… yeah my uncle is oppressing but my cousin it’s totally free got her car her house nobody say nothing… trust me I’m not jealous I love her and I’m happy she has stability (she’s older than me) I just don’t understand why I have to see her depressed talking about dumb things like “I will never find someone” (forgetting no one is good for you) while I have to struggle with work instability (will take years and I’ll be far from here i’ve to find something else in the meantime) money instability, social instability,life instability and I act like nothing is going on? 😹😹😹 I feel like to be in a war and if you’re in a war you don’t hide and cry but just carry on don’t thinking about “I’m gonna die” or you’ll probably die, I don’t listen those dumb sad songs or whatever sad thoughts and so on I don’t wanna feel bad… but at what cost? I look good so I don’t have problems to think about, ya? of course I’m just lazy and I like adrenaline rush when I’m near an exam or a lesson 🤪 of course it’s not something else!! My only bad-bad thing is enjoy driving fast, arrest me

hi

POKER CARDS

I made u my king
But for u, i was just a 2 of spades
I called u darling
But all u gave me were bruises

Now i dont need u to play
Even if i still have wounds
I finally found the real jolly

Ur searching sm1 that treats u like a queen of diamonds
But keep on pray
Bc nobody will ever take off this poker masks
I swear, theyll never go away

WAKE UP!!!

IT'S THE SIXTH OF THE MONTH!!!

A PAGE IN UR STORY

word after word
U thought i was ur hole book
Bc u were my entire world
But i was just smt to poke

U shown ur jolly card
"I would never get angry at u, pookie"
So i said " ur my future husband"

Suddently i became just a page
All the things u said? They were all a lie
Now i cant escape this cage
And i just want to die

it’s already September…GREAT… one of the few good things I had was going to the sea and now you wanna know what I get instead? LESSONS (not school) now next week… bro I just wanted to enjoy late late august, why do I have to study, kick my balls, smash my head ‘cause YOU decided to put LESSONS in early September…
And I have to wear even long trousers because apparently showing my perfect legs it’s inappropriate huh?

Your favorite jester is here

So, I was following kai stream ‘cause he was giving a goddamn gaming pc for free… I already won 1k fridge (fr not kidding) last year and I was like “I gotta try to win this contest 1/170.000 possibilities 🤪 but I must give it a try! And you wanna know what happened next? NOTHING fucking nothing… I was supposed to wait 10 minutes to write in chat after following the channel and after 3 minutes… the pc… was… GONE!
Now I gotta turn back waiting until summer 2026/year 2027 to reach 2k € all to be spent for a new gaming pc and maybe more because I wanna change the monitor too! I wanna do something big, my 9 yrs old gaming pc will still make it until 2026/2027?!, despite its struggling behaviour? We’ll see.

goodnight

THE STAR I NEVER HAD

Ur like the pole star
You guide me to the right way
Not to an alcholic bar
And saying "search alone ur way"

You never let me drown
Even when im abt to su*cide
U take me to life, right when im down
Ill always be on ur side

I wanna be ur right arm
To help u fight
The falling star sharm
That wanted to bite

(This poem isnt good as other ones i did, im sorry)

I'm freezing.

BUNNY

Im a weird being
They say "ur so funny"
But nobody cares abt how im feeling
at the end im just a bunny

Its always "dogs or cats?"
No one will ever see a hare
That is being eaten by some bats
Bc u never really know if they care

Im scared beetween wolves
They look ravenous
W those angry eyes
They always look dangerous

At the end of the day im just a stupid rabbit
Who cant even build a den
And leave that bad habbit
That i built back then

Always two steps ahead

Hello guys! Sometimes I forget this Chanel.

Yo soy sin auriculares

SPIDERS

Ur like spiders
U set a trap,
i fell in your eyes
And it ended up w a life snap

I hate this cobweb
Cause i belived in ur fakeness
Now i cant just fleeb
Ts is escapeless

Ur scary w ur long legs,
Ur poison is killing me
I know ive no chance to save my ass
Bc ull eat everything i have